It has been hard for me to start something incredable, and even harder to maintain it, but everynight when i lay down to sleep, i think to myself, "I want to do something..". Each night i wonder what i could of been if i had more self confidence, if i had taken the chance, taken that last cookie or played that game to the wee hours in the morning.

I have friend that aid me, that support my odd behavour, that guide me from insanity, and some like my friend Roy, i look up too, a role model of sorts, someone that ispires greatness in others simply cause he wants to make people happy. I have friends like Mike, who stand there and look at me funny when i say something stupid of out of line, the "silent treatment" i'd call it. Yet day to day, he laughs, games, and works just to make something of himself, almost oblivios to me as a friend, yet, every once in a while, he shows me why he's my friend, that silent and unforgettable "look" that sets me in place. 

Now, i dont normally go on and on about my life, mostly i feel like an idiot doing so, but today, i want to let a few things out, I want to take a breath of fresh air and say, "Yes, I want to do something.." and not be 6am when i'm finaly going to bed. 

So here i am, typing away a storm, not sure if anyone will read it, but, if anyone does, all i have to say is, "RUN!!!" heh.

It's not easy being smart, nor is it easy being stupid, but, when you're somewhere halfway, it's easy being yourself.